I had a sore throat and cough this morning, but NOW I'm achey (but not dizzy, thank God), I can't sleep and, lo and behold, I have a fever nearing 101. I don't think it's called irony when you go to a hospital for days in a row and then end up sick. Gah, if this means I can't visit my mom tomorrow (err, today) I'll be so cranky.

However, this week's SPN finally went online, so now I've watched it with dani_forever.

( spoilers, a slight playbyplay )

I really need that animated computer-bashed-with-head icon.

My DSL is being such a whore. It's gotten me behind on stuff and I'm cranky. Added to my current bummed feelings re: onlineish things, I am just very BLARGH.

In other news, finished all three Twilight books this weekend and will likely detail my love/hate later when I have more time. Alice is my favourite character, hands down, though second would have to go to Carlisle. Despite everything I could say I dislike, I ultimately could not resist buying my own copies of them (though I don't like getting hardbacks and only the first was in paperback).

Saw Prince Caspian yesterday, which was an excellent, gorgeous movie I think anyone can enjoy and that, ultimately, I loved, but it wasn't my Prince Caspian and I wish I had known they changed so much before I went into the theatre.

MA, I'd like to thread something, if you're game? I was thinking maybe a Voldie summons/Dark Mark burn situation that would given people something to react to when those with the Mark felt it? I need something to get them going since I've sucked bad there lately. :/

I AM OVERWHELMED.

There, I said it. It feels like such a shameful confession, because ultimately, some aspects of my RL overwhelmingness are not something that can be very much changed, as life is just like that at times, but online life certainly can be helped, which means I HAVE NO ONE TO BLAME BUT MYSELF. And yes, I include having things I've gotten rid of still show up on my virtual doorstep, because I haven't said "no, bad" when it's happening.

For a while now I've logged on with this sense of obligation one place or another ("Need to do X and Y before bed!" "I'm three days late with a tag!") and I was even keeping AIM on recently while I was getting over being sick, even though I was at least smart enough to be laying down, because. Well, because I suck, basically.

I didn't turn on AIM yesterday (MA, Mega, v. sorry :/) and I didn't do more than a cursory browse of games and basically, I just talked to Dani and did our private RP because I can't remember the last time I took a day just doing that. That used to be the usual thing to do on her days off when they coincided with my days not running around doing errands and it was a nice break from everything because our RP has never felt like an obligation. Obligation is not bad, of course, it's normal when you commit to something, but right now, it's killing my creativity because I've over committed myself. It hasn't yet encroached on my personal life, such as not giving my child the attention she needs and deserves (and my husband, heh), and I'm making certain it doesn't by cutting back on my commitments, so I need to sort out where and how.

( AR/ACC )

( N )

( FT )

( PARA )

( PERS )

OTHER RP
It has to go and it cannot come back in any form. As fun as doing one-shot RP is, as much as I'd like to do some one-to-one PSL things, I'm driving myself crazy with this stuff.

And overall, nothing new. I need to stop letting the shiny distract me, picking up new things because I'm ignoring stuff I should just fix. So no matter how fabulous the game I see pimped, no matter how awesome a character idea I get is, no more.

Finally, drama that has nothing to do with me. From now on, I don't want to hear about it. I left the game I left recently to get away from the overwhelming levels of frustration behind the scenes. Continuing to tell me about things occurring there, from ongoing plots a character has to what new wankery that mod is up to, especially when it's vague to get me to ask, is not helping me. The people who need to see this I don't have friended, so I need to be honest when I'm IMed from now on, as mention of that game/that mod is giving me a bad taste in my mouth when I am trying to have fun.

... And I feel no better having written that all out. It's out of my head now, but it's depressing. >.<

NON-RP
Basically, I've stopped being as active on my LJ/IJ f-lists as I like because I'm logged in to various character journals or writing tags and I want to get back to to the good habits I was developing. I don't friend people just because of the initial shared thing that brought on the friending, I friend also to make connections. I have a lot of fun, interesting people on my f-lists and I want to get back to reading and commenting regularly as I had been doing until a month ago. Cutting back in what I am needing to accomplish creatively should fix this, I think.


... and where the hell are some of my icons?
ETA: I now know, but crap, it's most of my accounts. >.< *bangs head on desk*

Okay, fingers crossed, I now have a functional version of Firefox that does not mangle all the graphics into abstract art and runs at a decent speed and I DID IT without losing my million username/passwords in LJlogin, none of my extensions and only had to redownload/install a few Greasemonkey scripts.

It took freaking forever though, I was ready to pull out my hair. I highly, HIGHLY recommend FEBE - Firefox Environment Backup Extension, OPIE - Ordered Preference Import/Export and Password Exporter. OPIE didn't end up helping me in the end, as it must be one of the preference files for something that's messed up (only once preferences were installed in the new FF install did it screw up all over again), so I couldn't recover all my preferences, but it was having to find and download everything again and then key in a billion usernames and passwords that had me so discouraged, so these extensions definitely saved me a lot of grief.

Between that and a teething baby, the last few days have been SO NOT FUN and thus my presence on the 'net was very, very scarce.

Now I need to catch up on LJ/IJ so people don't think I've been ignoring them and catch up on comments at FT/FT itself for the same reason.

Happy Valentine's Day, belatedly!

Also, meme ganked from kikithepirate:

SCATTERGORIES... It's harder than it looks!
*Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following. They have to be real places, names, things... nothing made up! Try to use different answers if the person in front of you had the same 1st initial. You CAN'T use your name for the boy/girl question.

What is your name? Jessi
1. Four-letter word: Junk.
2. Vehicle: Jeep.
3. City: Jerusalem.
4. Boy name: James.
5. Girl Name: Jennifer.
6. Drink: Jägermeister.
7. Occupation: Jockey.
8. Something you wear: Jumper.
9. Foods: Jalapeño.
10. Something found in a bathroom: Jewelry box.
11. Reason for being late: Jam in traffic.
12. Cartoon Character: Jerry.
13. Something you shout: JESUS!
14. Animal: Jackrabbit.
15. Body part: Jaw.
16. Word to describe you: Jovial.

I am so tired of sleeping. >.<

If anything I need to see sooner rather than later has happened or will happen shortly on the f-list, poke me here, as it'll be a bit before I'm back through all the posts I missed because I just keep falling asleep at all the wrong times of the day.