IT'S NOT CANCER!

That I've had to say this phrase twice this year is a little dismaying, BUT that's obviously countered GREATELY by the fact that in both cases, the presumed cancer was not cancer at all.

Phoebe's surgery was a week ago, from which she's been healing fantastically from, despite having to lose two front teeth (the tiny teeth in the upper front of the jaw) due to the removal of the lump and the skin it was within, and a back tooth due to it being bad. We had promising news from the outset because Bad News Vet (who now deserves her name less than before) was able to get her fingers entirely around the lump, which meant it was not attached to deeper tissue (which cancerous masses typically are), but I'd been biding my time over saying much about it out of a ridiculously superstitious urge to not jinx anything.

The vet called today with the results of the biopsy, which came back negative. While this type of thing (Husband Boy deleted the message before I could replay it to hear the actual term) can be aggressive while in existence (which meant we'd caught it at a good time as well, so Phoebe didn't require any reconstructive surgery), once it's removed, it rarely returns and she assured us last week that they'd excised any tissue surrounding it.

So to those of you who sent good vibes in Phoebe's direction, I thank you, SO MUCH. ♥

XD

Anyone out there on the f-list a Noah Bennet player, either former or perhaps always-wanted-to-and-never-did?

I'm looking for a Five Years Gone version specifically, for parabolical, as we're losing the one we had. As my Claire is also from Five Years Gone, and knows he is killed in their timeline (and was from that point in time), she's going to be pretty broken up and, SELFISHLY, I'd like to have another FYG!Noah to give her back her dad from her own timeline.

I know this might be a longshot, as there aren't as many Heroes RPGers out there interested in FYG since the other possible futures were introduced, but I'm hoping either someone out there has played Noah and might want to take a shot at that version, or someone who has also wanted to play Noah but didn't want to play three seasons of backstory might be interested.

I'd be willing to sit down and work on backstory from the FYG universe to help facilitate our interactions, as well as working on game canon to suit you if you'd choose to keep it. Now, it's likely (unless I find someone right now before the drops are processed and could ask for permission to not mention a disappearance) that Noah would have to arrive again anyhow, but there's really not much game backstory for him it if you'd want to give him the 'memories' of his time in Los Angeles but otherwise start fresh. You wouldn't necessarily need to keep previous game backstory if you didn't want to, however, so it would be your choice.

We've got a good Heroes cast with a mix of "timelines", from other Five Years Gone and episode specific (like a fabulous Six Months Ago Gabriel Grey) characters to a cluster of second season characters that have now diverged from the canon timeline due to game backstory (which my Nathan is from - basically, in their timeline, Nathan and Peter were missing for weeks after the shooting before Heidi and the boys were pulled to Los Angeles) to new season characters.

Actually, I'm convinced that taking an animal to the vet puts me into more of a knotted ball of ANXIETY than it has ever done for any of my pets. That's not to say all vet visits are awful, but it's always the worry/bad news ones that stick with me.

The vet we use is a clinic/animal hospital, so there are several vets and they are all lovely professionals, but there is one there for which the associated stress just makes me call her Bad News Vet and any time we get her, I'm always waiting for something minor to turn into something major. This poor woman - I KNOW HER NAME, she's an excellent vet, she's very personable and I definitely don't dislike her, but she's thoroughly stuck in my head as Bed News Vet because over the course of, what, 12+ years, she's been the vet we've gotten when something 'not exactly good' is happening. She's the one who diagnosed growths as 'potentially cancerous', the one who had to deliver the worrying news for blood tests, recommend medicine for advanced-age pets with 'decline' problems, and so forth.

So Phoebe goes in today over this small swelling/bump on her upper gumline that I just spotted this last weekend. And we get in there and it's Bad News Vet. Now, we've gotten through NORMAL visits with this vet, so it's not like I'm saying OMG CURSE. I'm pretty chill, she checks Phoebe out, then goes to look at the bump - and finds it's not just this swelling/bump/lump, but also a patch of skin on the roof of her mouth. This, apparently, is not the best of things, and she's making these serious faces of SERIOUS, so Bad News Vet breaks out her usual technique that always leaves me swallowing too hard to keep from having a MOMENT right there over what might well be NOTHING. I get that it's typical, but god, every time this speech starts, my mind goes straight to the WORSE CASE SCENARIO and stays there.

On the best case side, it could just be a non-cancerous mass with surrounding areas affected by it's existence. On the worst case side, it's cancer and cancer in the mouth is very bad, especially if it's in the roof of the mouth, but hey, they have "RADICAL TREATMENTS" that can include removal of the jaw bone if infected and radiation/chemo and etc and at this point she kind of started sounding like the teacher on Charlie Brown because I'm torn between repeating this steady mantra of "It's fine, it's fine, chill out, don't you dare well up in the damn vet's office, it doesn't have to be cancer, you know Bad News Vet always does best case/worst case, it's fine, CALM DOWN" and bouncing Zoey, who's getting cranky that the vet is getting to pay all the attention to the dog and not her. Luckily, Husband Boy was there and so the tiny bit I missed to "wah wah wah" was heard.

So Phoebe gets her bloodwork panel, since she'd over the age of five (just turned six on the 14th of this month) and I made it out of the vet without making an ass of myself. Later, Bad News Vet calls and the first thing out of her mouth is "this is definitely good news!" for which I almost choked because there is NO WAY this poor woman could know I refer to her this way. Anyhow, the bloodwork all came back shiny fabulous within a few hours (because they didn't even have to send it out to their send-away lab), so while it doesn't rule out cancer (as they don't do cancer screenings there), it means Phoebe is otherwise perfectly, fantastically healthy. Let's hope it stays that way.

Surgery is on the 13th, in which they'll do both surgery and a teeth cleaning and they'll remove the mass & surrounding affected tissue, or as much as they can as sometimes not all of it can come out in this sort of surgery in this particular spot (mouth), and they'll send it off to be biopsied.

If any of you out there are animal people, some good vibes sent Phoebe's way would be really great. <3 Me, I'll be over here reminding myself that the worst case scenario does not always equal ACTUAL SCENARIO.

Got back from vacation at about 4 a.m. this morning, and after catching up on sleep in my own bed (nothing like that feeling), I am now up and about and procrastinating unpacking my bags and doing my laundry. Once I have uploaded and sorted through my pictures, I'll likely do a picspam of family visiting plus Disney and talk about the trip. All in all, the trip was not everything I'd planned it to be because the traveling portion actually sucked in spots, things kept getting moved around so we saw less of everything than I'd planned, some things were strangely underwhelming because I'd built them up to be a certain way or when we got there we couldn't do them because they were broken or closed, and it was a mixed bag of emotions and experiences in the end.

HOWEVER, I did have lots of fun in a lot of places (seeing my new nephew, our dinner at the Crystal Palace with Pooh, Tigger, Piglet and Eeyore, Zoey's reactions to all the characters, the various fireworks shows) so that's what counts.

Things of interested I missed on the f-list, link 'em here in a comment, as I'm pretty sure I'm going to have to skip back a few f-list pages to catch up on everything.

Off to visit my sister and her family in Florida and see Disney for the first time in my life. While I might read the f-list a bit while I'm gone, my commenting will likely be nonexistent, so see everyone Tuesday!

(and if you're following me on Twitter, you'll likely see Disney talk there!)

I had a sore throat and cough this morning, but NOW I'm achey (but not dizzy, thank God), I can't sleep and, lo and behold, I have a fever nearing 101. I don't think it's called irony when you go to a hospital for days in a row and then end up sick. Gah, if this means I can't visit my mom tomorrow (err, today) I'll be so cranky.

However, this week's SPN finally went online, so now I've watched it with dani_forever.

( spoilers, a slight playbyplay )

I do not have the patience for any of this right now, I really, really do not.

My mother in the hospital for days after surgery to remove a tumor, now with bonus fever that no one can fucking explain >>>>>>>>>>>>> everything else. If there is someone out there in the world who doesn't like that, they can jolly well suck it as far as I'm concerned at this point.

I'm not in a mood to be happy or playful or make everyone else's problems better because I'm pretty damn well terrified that this fever is going to turn into something much greater because someone, somewhere, didn't do their job right. I don't want to lose my mother and dammit, I need some consideration of how I feel, some honest to God support. Maybe that's selfish, but if the rest of the world can be so damn selfish sometimes, I figure I'm about due.

I'll cope how I want to cope. If that means I don't want to do X or I want to do Y, I'm going to and people can like it or not. If they don't like it, I don't want to fucking hear about it.

Sweet Jesus Christmas.

( SO VERY SPOILERY )

( STILL SPOILERY, but aimed at Para )

GOD, GUYS, WHY DO I TALK SO MUCH? THIS IS RIDICULOUS.

ICON MEME! It was pretty fun, actually XD

MAH ICONS.

default	oldest	newest
saddest	happiest	angriest
cutest	sexiest	funniest
fave ship	fave fandom	fave animated
best quote	best textless	best stolen idea
use the most	favorite

HOW MANY ICONS DO YOU HAVE: 255
OUT OF HOW MANY AVAILABLE ICONS SPACES: 300
IF YOU COULD BUY SPACE FOR MORE, WOULD YOU: probably!
DO YOUR ICONS MAKE A STATEMENT: That I'm a sad fangirl.
WHAT FANDOM DO YOU HAVE THE MOST ICONS OF: Hrm. Probably Disney movies, as I have a TON of the Robin Hood icons because they're so fantastic
AND THE SECOND MOST: Heroes and Twilight appear to be tied, but I'm not counting to see if one wins.
WHAT SHIP DO YOU HAVE THE MOST ICONS OF: My RP ships, really. I don't have multiples of very many individual ships.
ARE YOUR ICONS MADE MOSTLY BY OTHER PEOPLE: Yep!
DO YOU MAKE ICONS: I do.
ARE THEY ANY GOOD: Depends on the day/icon.
ANIMATED ICONS ARE: LOVE. As evidenced by how many of them are up there.

DO THE MEME.

<center><font size="4"><b>MAH ICONS.</b></font></center> <center><table cellpadding="6" cellspacing="5" style="text-align: center;"><tr bgcolor="#dddddd"><td> default </td><td> oldest </td><td> newest </td></tr><tr bgcolor="#dddddd"><td> <img src="DEFAULTURL" /> </td><td> <img src="OLDESTURL" /> </td><td> <img src="NEWESTURL" /> </td></tr><tr><td colspan="3"> </td></tr><tr bgcolor="#dddddd"><td> saddest </td><td> happiest </td><td> angriest </td></tr><tr bgcolor="#dddddd"><td> <img src="SADDESTURL" /> </td><td> <img src="HAPPIESTURL" /> </td><td> <img src="ANGRIESTURL" /> </td></tr><tr><td colspan="3"> </td></tr><tr bgcolor="#dddddd"><td> cutest </td><td> sexiest </td><td> funniest </td></tr><tr bgcolor="#dddddd"><td> <img src="CUTESTURL" /> </td><td> <img >src="SEXIESTURL" /> </td><td> <img src="FUNNIESTURL" /> </td></tr><tr><td colspan="3"> </td></tr><tr bgcolor="#dddddd"><td> fave ship </td><td> fave fandom </td><td> fave animated </td></tr><tr bgcolor="#dddddd"><td> <img src="FAVESHIPURL" /> </td><td> <img src="FAVEFANDOMURL" /> </td><td> <img src="FAVEANIMATEDURL" /> </td></tr><tr><td colspan="3"> </td></tr><tr bgcolor="#dddddd"><td> best quote </td><td> best textless </td><td> best stolen idea </td></tr><tr bgcolor="#dddddd"><td> <img src="BESTQUOTEURL" /> </td><td> <img src="BESTTEXTLESSURL" /> </td><td> <img src="BESTSTOLENIDEA" /> </td></tr><tr><td colspan="3"> </td></tr><tr bgcolor="#dddddd"><td> use the most </td><td> favorite </td></tr><tr bgcolor="#dddddd"><td> <img src="USEDTHEMOSTURL" /> </td><td> <img src="FAVORITEURL" /> </td></tr><tr><td colspan="3"> </td></tr></table></center> <b>HOW MANY ICONS DO YOU HAVE:</b> <b>OUT OF HOW MANY AVAILABLE ICONS SPACES:</b> <b>IF YOU COULD BUY SPACE FOR MORE, WOULD YOU:</b> <b>DO YOUR ICONS MAKE A STATEMENT:</b> <b>WHAT FANDOM DO YOU HAVE THE MOST ICONS OF:</b> <b>AND THE SECOND MOST:</b> <b>WHAT SHIP DO YOU HAVE THE MOST ICONS OF:</b> <b>ARE YOUR ICONS MADE MOSTLY BY OTHER PEOPLE:</b> <b>DO YOU MAKE ICONS:</b> <b>ARE THEY ANY GOOD:</b> <b>ANIMATED ICONS ARE:</b> <center><font size="6"><b>DO THE MEME.</b></font>
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Ganked from Briege and Hannah:

Pick one of my characters, and I will tell you...

1. Who their favorite person (character) is in the game.
2. Who their least favorite person is in the game.
3. Who I ship them with in game.
4. One of their deep, dark secrets.
5. The answer to a question of your choice.

Current or past characters are fine!

New year, new layout!

On LJ, that is. I still like my IJ layout.

The usericons for journals and comms are even little Impalas. EEEEEE. I blame this entirely on dani_forever, how absolutely fantastic her Dean at Parabolical is and his influence on my characters, as he's given me a love for that car. <3

There, now my first entry of the new year has TEXT first, instead of just a graphic. That said:

MySpace Graphics & Free Myspace Layouts

‘Phantom of the Opera’ sequel due in 2009

ALW, you are a freaking asshat.

The follow-up to “Phantom,” which debuted in 1986 with Michael Crawford in the lead role, will take place a decade after the original, with the story set on Brooklyn’s Coney Island.

“It was the place,” Lloyd Webber said. “Even Freud went because it was so extraordinary … people who were freaks and oddities were drawn towards it because it was a place where they could be themselves.”

And the Phantom, who perishes at the end of the original musical, will reunite with lost love Christine.

DID YOU GET THE POINT OF THE NOVEL AT ALL?

*facedesk*

I love the musical, LOVE IT, and Michael Crawford is still my absolute favorite Phantom, but ugh. This is not a sequel opportunity. This is ridiculous.

So yesterday was one of the two Christmas parties on Husband Boy's side of family and I received The Original Christmas Classics, which has Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer, Frosty the Snowman, Santa Claus Is Comin' To Town and four others.

Watching Rudolph now and I cannot believe that, even at twenty-seven, I can still speak/sing along with the WHOLE FREAKING THING. I can't remember to switch the laundry from the washer to the drier an hour after putting it in, but stuff like this and most of the Disney movies made before 2000 I can recite verbatim. (Although I'd swear there's extra stuff/extended songs in this than the one they showed on TV for years and I had on VHS, which is no doubt likely.)

It's funny what you notice about things from childhood as an adult, though I always thought Donner was a huge ass to everyone.

"No, this is man's work." OMG SO SEXIST. Yet I still love this thing just the same.

And in case I don't post it beforehand:


happy
holidays!

TITLE: A Real Life Fairytale
AUTHOR: Jessi, princessjessia (Disclaimer)
FANDOM: Labyrinth/Heroes [parabolical]
CHARACTERS: Sarah & Peter Petrelli
SUMMARY: The best stories always hold elements of reality.
RATING: PG
WORD COUNT: 2260+
NOTES: for dyaniera on her birthday, with much ♥

( I thought that I would be alone // you caught my eye and I was home // and I realized that this was love // I see the world through different eyes // I look at you by my side // no matter where, you're always there )

ganked from no-one as I do it every year on LJ and now have enough posted at IJ to do it both places for each journal:

Post the first meaningful sentence of the first entry of each month this year. It's a nifty little way to relive your year.

( lalala )

*eyes Sarah's permanent account from the Black Friday sale* WELL THAT DIDN'T LAST LONG. Whatever, I can use that journal name forever for various things!

ganked from dealga@LJ:
1. Put your iTunes on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

( these are my confessions... )

I just wrote a five-page, THREE THOUSAND PLUS word narrative in three hours. I'm very glad my Sarah muse came back, thus proving she hadn't left completely as I was starting to worry, and that apparently I AM still capable of finishing something all on my own, but sweet Jesus.

But yes, yay return of my character. *\o/* Now as long as she doesn't set fire to my brainspace in a furious rage, we'll be good.

*flail* Sarah and Peter are getting married in three days and I swear, I'm having some kind of residual FLAIL feeling from my own wedding panic realizing that, because it feels like nothing is done! Most of the things Sarah wants, I think we're just going to have to narrate and describe, as they do not exist as images on the internet and boy am I tired of PSPing everything to be 'right' because she is a picky, picky Bridezilla (and yes, I realize how truly unstable that just made me sound). Wedding programs, though, definitely a priority, which means I need to be talking with people about the ceremony specifics.

THREADWISE: The ceremony log, thought it doesn't need to be long, needs to be done before the fourth so it can be posted between the pre-wedding and post-wedding and/or reception threads on that day, because they MUST be married then. I'm lame, don't judge me. Bachelor party (which Nathan needs to post and afjsldkf they really should have done invites, FAIL ME, looks like I'll be backdating, but they're men, they can use graffiti) needs to happen the night of the second, because it's a Friday in game and there'll be a space between it and the wedding. The bachelorette party is not mine to post, but needs to go up then and I'm not sure who's invited, all Sarah's 'friends/family' guests, I'd guess, which is like, nearly every female :P). I also need something for Saturday with someone making Sarah go to freaking SLEEP because she, and I am not kidding, has not been sleeping at ALL lately even with Peter trying to stick around until she nods off in the evening and is about due for a major meltdown or crash. So stubborn. Plus the post-wedding/pre-reception thing for Peter from Sarah and the thing on their honeymoon that Sarah says she needs to do (besides Peter *ba-dum tish!*)

I think someone's going to need to revive me after the next few days have passed.

TIMED COUNTDOWN

So I haven't watched the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade in several years, as we're always getting ready/on our way to family things, but oh my dear Lord, I really, truly wished I had seen this.



He Rickrolled the entire viewing audience. AHAHAHAAHAHA.

I don't even care if most of them had no idea what that truly was, this was so, so much win. I must have it in my journal for all time now.

*SINGS ALONG, AS ALWAYS*

AHAHAHAHAH
( vid )

That was so a needed laugh.